You know life can be very confusing/harsh at times , and you realize that there are times when your just not ready.

Here I am pretty much and enjoying life , enjoying my wife well she has been losing weight and has what they called severe COPD we have been dealing with this for a long time , she is on oxygen 24/7- - - like I also said she is dropping weight she was 170 pounds and she is now 80 pounds. just looks so frail. she sleeps probably 19 hours out of the day, I can just see her slipping away right in front of me.

Well had to get her to the hospital last Wednesday morning , needless to say not good. The Dr at least was straight up instead of sugar coating. We thought maybe with her losing so much weight in a short amount of time could be Cancer eating her up, They did a total body cat scan and thank God came back clean.

Yet he did tell her she had a lot of things that was not fixable. He told her that she was in what they call Severe COPD -- - END , which is exactly what it sounds like as to what that might mean.it means it's done can't get any worse & nothing they can do- - her lungs are totally shot. Just a matter of time which sucks all we can do is just wait.

She is at a point as to where she can't have any kind of surgery chances are is she will never male it off the table. So he talked to us and ask us what we wanted when things happen so it comes down to she will be a DNR.
He said if things start to go then if they try to do any CPR they would crush/break all ger ribs would not be pretty, you break those ribs then chances are they would puncture her lungs.

Soooo they are also very concerned about her weight saying she can't lose any more weight cause if she loses more then you have got where her organs will shut sown. The whole thing my friends is just a lose , lose situation , we have brought in Midland home health they doing Occup Theraphy , Physical Therapy and Hospice will be coming in soon.

I guess just needing to get this off my chest it's a lot to take in - - feeling so helpless knowing nothing we can do. Also makes me realize how simple the game of Basketball really is comparred to fighting for life , Life can be so rough at times makes reality sit in.

@kjayhawks2.0 Wow what a match , KU advances to sweet sixteen, jumping out 2- --0----Miami fights back wins the third and then slugfest in the fourth but we pull it out

Man Tre is just solid- - --very solid , really have grown to like him - -alot , then we have " THE DAWG ' I actually think Melvin has gotten better with his three point shooting , and when he gets out on the break -- - -look out. NOW let's hope from last nights game take away Kohl is MAYBE coming out of that Season long drought on his three, if we can get some consistency from him just makes us that more dangerous , really pulling for Kohl/

Good to hear Coach Self for a change saying Darryn is doing good and feeling fine

@BeddieKU23 Ya I've read so many articles that Stokes just isn't worth the head ache. Almost sounds like stokes is a me , m , me type of guy - lot of distractions, been in fights with other kids at his school- -think there is a good chance the negatives out weighs the positive I'm good and I know it ---could be a real cancer to the other players on the team on AND off the court.

He obviously loves the attention as this recruiting should be over really don't believe he is any closer to announcing then when it first started. Even heard good chance in the end he never steps foot on any College court. that he will end up sitting out of College ball for a year play across the waters then enter for the NBA. just don't think with all this he is worth it --good talent just to much baggage/drama following him- -don't want him causing problems with fellow team mates.

@Jayhawk_69 Thank you. you know people say you better prepare yourself but you can never really prepare yourself for something like this you may think your ready but when it hits it just like a swift kick to the ya.-- thank you again

Sorry, I know this doesn't really pertain to us directly but was killing time till our game.

Just got to say these fricking Duke fans arrogance is just stifling man-- -they always think they get fouled every trip down the floor , they never foul , seems like the got the three referees these one's tonight missed blatant clear as a full moon at night-- - Duke players bulldoxing Florida nothing-- -Florida same type of play and it's a charge.

Ahh yes always refreshing to play a five on Eight.

@nuleafjhawk makes it even harder and wonder when you see him dressed out and then during time outs you see him bouncing around outside of the huddle and giggling talking to other players,

I think there is more going on then what we know , I think his handler's/agent have their arms in up to their elbows deep in this

Basically one thing to say : -- forty three minutes , - - - -- thirty six points , - - - -9/15 three point shooting ,-- -- -seven rebounds - - --four assists- ---a steal - - --& ZERO TURNOVERS. ----Fricking forty three minutes and ZERO TURNOVERS plus really good defense- - --that's what's called a DAWG -- Nuff Said - ---ROCK CHALK ALL DAY LONG BABY

OK, here is the thing . If you really wanna know the truth- - -I really don't think Darryn has hardly ANY SAY in this whole dam thing. If that is true then that's truly sad. I mean I'm feeling that the show is being totally run by mommy and daddy. This kid has had his decisions made probably for almost entire time, by Mom & Dad and agents so on and so on.

So now Darryn is what 18 ? - 19 years old? -- and I think the parents are still wanting to make the decisions , Darryn is an adult now I am beginning to think the wrong people are still trying to tell Darryn make the decisions. IF that's the case and Darryn wants to play then these agents AND THE PARENTS need to step back and let it go. He is a grown man starting his own life, his future is in front of him. The longer he sits the more he faces the possibility of his value going down. I think the wrong people right now are still making the decisions

What I have some problems with Makes it really difficult to swallow. I mean your going to tell me IF this is legit that this is a DP exclusive ? Is this the first time that something like this has EVER happened to thousands of basket ball players-- - - Darryn is the only ONE that this has ever happened to? Now if he isn't the only one then there should be history some where? So with all these DR's now days /specialists there is NOT ONE single DR /Specialist that knows anything about ( these so called cramps ) & how to treat them )

The insiders representing these NBA clubs that YES there is concern on his health & could effect his draf status as to where he lands in the draft. So that leaves us with IF these cramps are legit then it looks like these cramps are going to turn Farryn into an injury filled NBA career

Yesterday was the perfect opportunity for Darry to display his talent AND HE DID -------in the First Half. Clearly out played AJ my GOD this kid has got loads of talent and the thing I keep hearing is how effortlessly he makes it look & he did that exactly IN THE FIRST HALF. so frustrating I mean this kid is a man- ---does it all jumpers-- -drives- -he finishes- -steals --rebounds --assists - -does it all-- and YET here w are dealing with this un certainly WILL HE PLAY OR WON'T HE ?
WHO HERE THINKS HE PLAYS TOMMORROW NIGHT ? probably 60/40 he does , but not the full game

Just got through listening to K/State getting their ass smacked again.- -got beat by Iowa St like 05=61. They are just grilling Tang, only thing holding them up is his buy out

Well guys great win and yet I think we all know now we have our answer, or we all should know.- -With Darryn we for sure can make a legit final four run. -- ----WITHOUT Darryn nope no way, we still probably when a couple without Darryn BUT FINAL FOUR facing brutal reality without thats about the best we could do

Watching ESPN College game day live right now on you tube. They were saying they think this game is the most expensive ticket to get today going for 200.00 per ticket

Sad to say but the worst thing that could possibly happen today is for Texas Tech to get beat by UCF. with us coming in Monday they would be loaded for Bear

IT'S GAME DAY Hell ya.. - -- Huge day you can just feel all the hype for /about the game I don't know how many pod casts I've have seen on this game, A Lot of people are saying probably will be the biggest game in the Nation today.

So much happening , were celebrating the 10,000th game in the Phog-- --- - -The Truth is coming home for the fay , I believe they mentioned this is his time in fifth teen he has been back .--- We have big time recruits will be here for the game --the Phog is going to be shaking,- -first time for BYU Coach to experience the Phog . and then of Course we have the match up DP against AJ-- I just hope Darryn doesn't get over hyped up and starts to over focus on his one on one match up instead of the other parts of the game I think he will be fine , Flory has to stay out of foul trouble-- It's going to be INSANE- - - --ROCK CHALK FELLAS

You think the truth has a chat with Tryan ? -let me put it this way. Is the pope polish ? does a Bear crap in the woods ? I'm sure he will. The TRUTH shall set you free lol

@BeddieKU23 something in my gut tells me Kohl will transfer out, just got buried on the bench. I think the re-classification was a little rougher for him then he thought and once he started struggling it became a Major thing

ESPN talking about how this should be a classic.- last time these two matched up was on the circuit and it was just crazy , Darryn lit it up for FIFTY EIGHT POINTS and Dybansta going off for FORTY EIGHT they had off nights lmao

@kjayhawks2.0 Thank you for that, not easy but like you say just cherish the time we do have, God has his plan