You know life can be very confusing/harsh at times , and you realize that there are times when your just not ready.

Here I am pretty much and enjoying life , enjoying my wife well she has been losing weight and has what they called severe COPD we have been dealing with this for a long time , she is on oxygen 24/7- - - like I also said she is dropping weight she was 170 pounds and she is now 80 pounds. just looks so frail. she sleeps probably 19 hours out of the day, I can just see her slipping away right in front of me.

Well had to get her to the hospital last Wednesday morning , needless to say not good. The Dr at least was straight up instead of sugar coating. We thought maybe with her losing so much weight in a short amount of time could be Cancer eating her up, They did a total body cat scan and thank God came back clean.

Yet he did tell her she had a lot of things that was not fixable. He told her that she was in what they call Severe COPD -- - END , which is exactly what it sounds like as to what that might mean.it means it's done can't get any worse & nothing they can do- - her lungs are totally shot. Just a matter of time which sucks all we can do is just wait.

She is at a point as to where she can't have any kind of surgery chances are is she will never male it off the table. So he talked to us and ask us what we wanted when things happen so it comes down to she will be a DNR.
He said if things start to go then if they try to do any CPR they would crush/break all ger ribs would not be pretty, you break those ribs then chances are they would puncture her lungs.

Soooo they are also very concerned about her weight saying she can't lose any more weight cause if she loses more then you have got where her organs will shut sown. The whole thing my friends is just a lose , lose situation , we have brought in Midland home health they doing Occup Theraphy , Physical Therapy and Hospice will be coming in soon.

I guess just needing to get this off my chest it's a lot to take in - - feeling so helpless knowing nothing we can do. Also makes me realize how simple the game of Basketball really is comparred to fighting for life , Life can be so rough at times makes reality sit in.

@kjayhawks2.0 Wow what a match , KU advances to sweet sixteen, jumping out 2- --0----Miami fights back wins the third and then slugfest in the fourth but we pull it out

I'm just as glad to see Flory staying out of serious foul trouble early in games. Can't block shots from the bench

Bill Self haters catching some heat from former players and other fans. Scott Pollard was quoted saying KU fans are just spoiled, others are saying some KU fans better be careful for what they ask for; - - -some UNC fans said making the NCAA tourney is a hell of a lot better then the NIT

Other UNC fans AND Duke fans saying that KU has never had 20 loss Seasons like they have had , some saying hell there was some UNC fans were wanting Roy Williams run out of Carolina and look what they ended up with, I have to agree with Scott and others KU fans well some anyways are just spoiled they have un realistic takes - -winning NCAA championships just aren't given to you on a silver platter. there is a lot that goes into that.- -Like who is playing their best ball , the health of the team , a team's draw . bad shooting nights , ya da , ya da , ya da

@nuleafjhawk Oh , ok my friend had no idea about that--- greatly appreciated,

You know what ? --I've just know no matter what, I'm going to be ok God is my rock and is and will be with me if things get worse, he will give me the strength that I need to make it through.

He is always with us and IF he thinks the wife has been through enough pain and suffering and takes heer home- -then I know she is in true bliss and couldn't be happier and knowing that I would be also for her --I'm going to be just fine. Thank you so much for your thoughts buddy

Man Tre is just solid- - --very solid , really have grown to like him - -alot , then we have " THE DAWG ' I actually think Melvin has gotten better with his three point shooting , and when he gets out on the break -- - -look out. NOW let's hope from last nights game take away Kohl is MAYBE coming out of that Season long drought on his three, if we can get some consistency from him just makes us that more dangerous , really pulling for Kohl/

Good to hear Coach Self for a change saying Darryn is doing good and feeling fine

@BeddieKU23 Ya I've read so many articles that Stokes just isn't worth the head ache. Almost sounds like stokes is a me , m , me type of guy - lot of distractions, been in fights with other kids at his school- -think there is a good chance the negatives out weighs the positive I'm good and I know it ---could be a real cancer to the other players on the team on AND off the court.

He obviously loves the attention as this recruiting should be over really don't believe he is any closer to announcing then when it first started. Even heard good chance in the end he never steps foot on any College court. that he will end up sitting out of College ball for a year play across the waters then enter for the NBA. just don't think with all this he is worth it --good talent just to much baggage/drama following him- -don't want him causing problems with fellow team mates.

@stoptheflop One of the Major flaws which will probably cost us tomorrow but it has reared it's ugly head all year long is- ---the dam long ass scoring droughts with sloppy forced pass & shots-- just pisses the f - - -off. you can take it to the bank we will go through one of these which will cost us dearly against St John's Think we need to make more of an effort to get Flory involved early in the game.

I need to see Flory go right at Zuby be aggressive and make Zuby defend early. I think we are starting to fall into the old thing again of just having the ball in Darryn's and everybody else just standing around waiting for Darryn make a play. while the rest of the team stands around and slosh's through sludge

@Jayhawk_69 Thank you. you know people say you better prepare yourself but you can never really prepare yourself for something like this you may think your ready but when it hits it just like a swift kick to the ya.-- thank you again

@TYOHawk OR he could of been like Foster from Duke who was busting his ass off coming back under three weeks from a broken foot

@Texas-Hawk-10 I know what you really meant to say- anyone but anyone but Puke' Couldn't of happened to any better team bunch of aggorant shits - - -- Cocky. I'm so happy.

Bill Self haters catching some heat from former players and other fans. Scott Pollard was quoted saying KU fans are just spoiled, others are saying some KU fans better be careful for what they ask for; - - -some UNC fans said making the NCAA tourney is a hell of a lot better then the NIT

Other UNC fans AND Duke fans saying that KU has never had 20 loss Seasons like they have had , some saying hell there was some UNC fans were wanting Roy Williams run out of Carolina and look what they ended up with, I have to agree with Scott and others KU fans well some anyways are just spoiled they have un realistic takes - -winning NCAA championships just aren't given to you on a silver platter. there is a lot that goes into that.- -Like who is playing their best ball , the health of the team , a team's draw . bad shooting nights , ya da , ya da , ya da

@wissox83 Was just listening to the field of 68 after dark podcast-- May's name came up for the possible job at N Carolina , they were saying they don't think he will leave Michigan as right there Football rules and not the pressure.- ---he won't leave or wouldn't leave Michigan for KU he is right where he wants to be

What is the biggest Bill might even be considering retiring this year thing to make me think Coach maybe calling it quits was in his interview He come out and said he loves what he does but wants to feel good doing it & the statement him saying him and the family would get together and talk about it.

@FarmerJayhawk Very true , It's not like he intentionally set out to just le the kid drive and score. He just got beat on the opening inbound and didn't get caught up --He is a good kid an unfortunately I'm sure he has been getting a bunch of hate messages and such from a bunch of pricks that has nothing better to do - -just like you got a bunch of haters that's on Coach some people are just unreal

Wait and see- -Tiller will transfer out and go somewhere else and instantly become some super stud. Watch whole new roster next yearI think chances pretty good that Kohl and maybe Paul too will be gone

@BShark said in Kansas vs St Johns:

Kohl not playing more might have been the most annoying part of the season. It's clear what Jamari is at this point, Kohl could have given more/developed.

probably won't have to worry about Kohl now, he probably going to transfer out

@rcjhdraft you seriously want that bag of garbage ? -NO WE DON'T, Thank God more likely he now foing to fo to Kentucky . he will fit right in with those idiots

@kjayhawks2.0 Or thirty, but wait we still have a 2nd half to go. Be patient, we only have 20 more minutes to close this book